You’ll believe it or not but the New-York Miami flight takes 40 minutes more today than in 2013. I spend that time rehashing what’s happening to me. I can spin it every possible way, I had it coming. It’s a miracle that J spent even some months with me. She’s so beautiful, so radiant, so … everything. She just vaguely began to dabble in politics and most of the commentators are already persuaded that she’ll be at least President of the UCAS someday. The Horizon guy is a top tog media producer and a member of their Board of Directors, he’s mega-rich, mega-smart, mega-seducing, he has unlimited access to an endless supply of top models and gorgeous actresses : he’s been living like a monk for 2 years now, just to keep his chances open with J. Me, I’m just an average guy with a dubious past.
And if it was not enough, a lot of people very important to her, the fatherly figures who watched over her after she lost her parents, her childhood friends, and so on, hate me with passion. You can’t understand that if you don’t realize that she’s nobility in Ares, scratch that, it’s a documented fact that Damien Knight changed her diapers with his own hands once, she’s royalty. And all these Ares good people adore her like ancient European people adored their kings and queens : they would gladly jump into the fire for her, they’ve never enough of her on their news sites but they take every perceived failing of her as a personal insult. And, as she can’t fail, there must be a responsible. I’m her Marie Antoinette, the stain that tarnishes the perfect image, the monster who took advantage of the innocent girl.
You know corporate culture and how these people think : There hasn’t been a minute of my past that hasn’t be scrutinized and she’s been swamped with material (often perfectly accurate, helas) presenting me as the worst lowlife scum of the 6th world and a terrible jeopardy for her life and career. And she shrugged off every piece of it. Even the goriest episodes. Even coming from people that she loved and respected since her childhood. Like I said, a miracle.