Is no one allowed to suck in SR?
I'm a long time gamer, my gaming background is wide ranging.
Over the years I've grown to enjoy two aspects of TTRPGs.
I enjoy the RP, stepping into the mind of a character for a couple hours a week is a joy.
But more so, I love building the character but not in a CharGan capacity(though that is a ton of fun).
I enjoy building the character in game. I often make my characters very advanced, how I want them to eventually be, and then reverse engineer that to 1st level, or 0 karma, or the equivalent for whatever game I play.
This means my characters are flawed in some way. Often intentionally, so that I can take my unsure new runner who's ready for his first outing into the shadows, and grow him into a badass over time.
I'm running into difficulty with finding an online group. It seems the online groups are uninterested in growing a character. It's as though the mentality is, "If you can't take out The Aztechnology Headquarters on your first run then why bother playing at all."
I know SR is a lethal game, but sometimes a flawed guy gets through it by luck and wit, stumbles through a run or two, then becomes invaluable through growth. I enjoy the challenge of playing a little above my paygrade at first then growing into the paycheck. Those are the games I want to play. If I wanted to be a combat god right out of the gate and faceroll my way through missions I'd play WoW, lol. Am I wrong for this?