I had thought I understood politics. After all, I'd had politicians, judges, and various other officials as clients for years. They loved to talk, and I was happy to listen given talkers generally treated me better. But listening to Jimmy it was clear that politics was a lot harder than it looked.
Which makes sense, I guess. How many times had Nagisa and I gotten in fights when she suggested that, except for the violent ones, I had it easier. "All you have to do it lie down," she'd say. At least earlier on. It infuriated me. Prostitution is hard work, dammit. At least when you take gold and platinum clients. You have to learn what each client likes and create a fantasy for them while they are with you. Wall off their real world life and for however many hours give them unhindered pleasure. Make them the center of the universe.
It took skill. Research and study. Years of practice.
Here I thought politics was just standing up and speaking your mind. Yeah, I knew there was intrigue, but what Jimmy described sounds...
Is this what love feels like?
Damn, my life is getting so complicated. What do I say to this?
"Jimmy," I start hesitantly, feeling certain I'd say the wrong thing again, "I've never met anyone like you. And that's a good thing!" I add reassuringly when his face falls again. "I admire you maybe more than anyone...well anyone our age.
"There's a lot you don't know about me, Jimmy. A lot you may not like when you find out. A lot...that might not help your career. I've been so worried about you getting hurt physically by being around me that I never even thought about the politics. I think before you're seen with me I need to tell you how a girl like me, someone different like I am, managed to survive this long. It's not a pretty story, and now isn't the time for it."
I take a deep breath and continue before Jimmy can respond. "If I contact Michael, I'll stand with him myself although the idea terrifies me. Even if you're not up there with me, I know you'll be with me in sprit. That will have to do. And Jimmy, I do like you." I lean forward and give the boy a very quick peck on the lips before standing back again. "A lot. You're the only boy I can imagine myself with. But I think we need to take this one step at a time so we can make sure I don't ruin your dreams. Seeing those dreams die, and knowing I killed them, would break my heart."