thank you all for your thoughts,
TwitchyD: call it unfortunately perfect timing, Wade went on his "long lonely walk" on the 10th, and news of his death was passed within the EOD community on the 12th. it took me almost a week to realize it was my classmate that i was reading about (just last night, when i saw his portrait in the above linked article) and it hit me like a 800 pound gorilla gripping my chest. was still basically in shock this morning when i had the misfortune of reading your (now-obviously sarcastic) post. an emotional over-reaction.
thank you all for your kind words.