@Minnie, Tony stands up and look at you he pushes you to the cold white wall and passionately kisses you. You have never seen him so intense and passionate. Actually he is so different than how you ever experienced him.
That kiss was not deductive, he did not teach you on the perfect kiss and how to just sense exactly what your partner wants. This kiss is rough, intense and yet the technique is wrong in so many ways, it feels real to you, you feel that it overwhelms you.
When he next speak it is a soft whisper, and you can feel his emotions changed. It is no struggle but acceptance. His eyes are wet when he tells you
"It touches me that you struggle... You are brilliant to understand that you are being tested right now. But you know the code of honor of the family. Loyalty above all, loyalty to the family. I am no family! I can never be, I just proved that to you. You see it wasn't just your own acceptance test, it was also my own. What I needed to do to pass is simply take you here have sex with you and say nothing about whats coming.
But when I looked at you, I knew that I can spare you the worst experience of your life. I can spare you being raped, tortured and abused for days. I can finally do what I never could, protect you. All I needed to do is give you an opportunity to prove your own loyalty in some other way. Truth be told, as much as I am loyal to the family - I cannot bare the thought that you will be treated like that.
Go to Valentina, tell her that I warned you about the test and you will never have to sleep with anyone ever again. Your body will be your own, and you will serve the family with your other talents. I know you want it more than anything in the world, let me do what I feel right for once in my life.
Consider it my last gift for you. It kills me inside every time when I notice the marks of abuse on your delicate body. I can never live with myself if you die, or even if you live through this kind of torture - I know you will never be the same. I will have to look at that darker version of you and know that I did that to you. I did that just because I feared for my life.
You feel that he can barely contain his passion. "Please leave before I make it harder for you." He whispers. He seems completely aware that it may be the last time that he sees you.