Solo thinks "This is impossible to make a meaningful discussion like that. Why didn't he shower during the hour everyone were waiting for me. Off course I am in no place to complain. I just created five watcher spirits, relatively powerful ones without even knowing I can do it."
Solo looked distanced, he was silent but his thoughts raced.
"M... how come I can make watcher spirits?"
"Oh... you have forgotten a lot. You were much more powerful once, strongest mage I have met."
"What happened to me? who is this dark one?"
"Well since you already know about Dark one I will tell you this, you had a difficult life. Growing up, you were experimented on that's you do know - but what was the experiment? That you do not know. "
"What was the experiment?"
"You were not considered metahuman in the early days. So IDI took you for research."
"What were they after?"
"I do not know exactly, times were different back then and my understanding of meta humanity was lacking. What they did fundamentally changed your aura, you picked up many skills and very quickly. You started to be interested in technology and and became a decker at half the time it took others. Your drive in life changed - you were obsessed constantly studying."
"I am still very skilled, what does it have to do with dark one?"
"Nobody understood it but you became less and less stable, something very fundamental in your soul felt the manipulation and with each passing day and each new skill you picked up overnight that part became increasingly resentful."
"I already know that I eliminated an entire division in IDI, I probobly was very pissed off"
"No you weren't you loved IDI, when you discovered the truth about you and how your entire family did not survive the experiment, you decided to take your own life. You couldn't continue living in a cooperation that you now hated and you couldn't even imagine doing anything violent about it, or leave it."
"I am obviously - still alive what happened?"
"You were weak and that dark part of you took over. Your first casualty was your secretary, she found out that you were trying to commit suicide she tried to talk you out of it but you just killed her. Do you remember it? Her name was Dana."
"I am sorry, I never knew I had a secretary, in fact I know that I had one I know that I worked in IDI and killed many people in there, but it feels like a dream, not like something that actually happened to me."
"Well since you killed her, you crossed a line you just killed and killed and no one seemed to be able to stop you. You were one of the most powerful people in IDI, you managed to erase yourself in a combination of magical and technological methods. You wen't rampage in the shadows doing the most dirty of jobs."
"I vaguely remember killing people - but I haven't killed anyone in many years now. How did it stop?"
"You stopped it... you defeated dark one. "
"I stopped myself? "
"In a way, you invented a ritual to brake a personality fragment from a man. "
"I did what!? "
"You took out the dark one outside of your head."
"This does not make any sense, I don't remember any of it "
" I just know that when the ritual was done you barely remembered who you are but you could barely hurt a soul. "
"I know that I am insane... but it seems like I was pretty fucked up even before I did that to myself. "
"Well, part of that ritual was designed to cause you to lose as much of your magical talent as possible, so that you can never change your mind."
"What happened then? "
"I do not know... you said your goodbye and never summoned me again for a while. You said that you will probobly never be able to summon me again. But I watched you when I could."
"This is why you asked all these questions... how long ago was it? "
"I do not know, this world feel like a dream for me - time work differently where I live."
"Oh, I had some dark times... I was convinced I was three different people. It took me a while to understand that I wasn't."
"So you do not believe that anymore? "
"Oh, I still feel like different people - but I know that that feeling is false, and I try to stay balanced and avoid stressful situations, because I have no idea how stable I am"
"Indeed, you barely feel a thing since you summoned me, completely numb. "
"I have no idea why I am like that... I was a lot more emotional when before I understood that I am very sick. But then, I started feeling stuff from my summoned spirits. When that chopper went down I felt the pain the spirit felt."
"I am a bit confused right now. "
"Why are you confused? "
"Because you love me. I can see it, you are genuinely in love with me. "
"I like you do not be an ass about it"
"But you never felt like that before..."
"What was our relation before I lost my mind? "
"I was completely in love with you. I even allowed you to fetter me."
"And I ? "
"You were cold, you used me. Eventually you grew used to me and took me for granted."
"Did I hurt you?"
"Very much, but the day you released me you seemed genuinely regretful. "
"But I did not love you... why did you came back?"
"I am not sure, I was curious... I still felt guilty even after you made me your slave. I still was the one that killed your mother when she tried to escape."
"You just did not want to be bound and she was not powerful enough, I forgive you. "
"No you DON'T you never did. You manipulated me, used my emotions. Deep down you hated me. You only say that you forgive me because you became numb and you feel nothing toward no one."
"You just said that I am in love with you tough - you are not making a lot of sense."
"I know this is why I am confused, you love me like I loved you. "
"But you did not want me to bind you..."
"Please don't... I am not ready for such a commitment. I do not trust you enough."
"I do not know what to say... You just told me I love you. Do you feel anything toward me?"
"I do not know... you forgot everything, almost everything but I remember it all. I enjoy your new self, I will give you that."
"You are afraid that the ritual failed and I will revert into my old self that abused you?... don't answer I know you do. I cannot even imagine hurting you, I will do anything within my power so that does not happen again.
"This is what makes it so sad... I know you will but you grow in power fast, you just relearned ritual spell casting in an hour. What if you are changing right in front of my eyes?"
"Please do not cry... We are in a public place and they already think that I am completely insane."
"I can't help it, I am so sad."
Solo's eyes became wet, he apologized and said "Just give me a minute... I'll go wash my face." He spent a couple of minutes crying until he could contain M's deep sorrow.